you know like writers block or art block? lets try for fullblown LIFE block.

i suppose im not coping well with juggling everything at once. my exams are soon (including some TOMMOROW) which is freaking me out, i have tons of work to do which is stressing me out and i just dont feel like drawing anymore. i havent doodled in ages. and thats just not me.

i also think is that people are trying to to push me down 3 different paths at once. my mum says that i should be more creative and imanigitive by creating my own stuff and characters rather than drawing doof and perry all the time but ive only realised now that its too late and i have no imagination left. whenever i think about originality the professionals say think about your experiences. the trouble is that i dont have any! ive lived in the same house with the same people around me all my life and ive been to the same school for the past 13 years! and when i think about my school life its boring or pressurising just making me work work work. when it comes to these things i just dont have the energy anymore. im scared about the future again, with all the academic work ive put into it people also say i need to put more creative work into it. i havent even started a portflio yet. and im horrified.

ive been ill for the past two days too, i just feel lathargic and sad like i have a bad cold or something. i really just dont feel my usual optimistic self. i dont feel me.

if youve read my depressed rant, i thank you for your careness.